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Tuesday, May 18, 2010 / 8:59 PM
You are kidding me man..
I mean, what the fcking hell is wrong?
Im losing what I had in place, the target I set from the start of the year
In both ways, Im just losing the goal that I held on so tightly...
But why?
I ask myself what has happened to that happy me from before?
Though it might be a lie, I would be glad to be living it
I sat in the shower, reflecting my actions from before and also now
I thought of a lot of things
Thought about my performance today
Im really losing it...
I had never tried falling out twice for the same reason
I had an element of fear today
I dunno what will happen
I just saw a black screen
I dunno what happen, why it happened, what the fuck was wrong
For 3 times I saw that black screen for about 30 secs
I really was scared
Never happened to me before
It was a normal trng, but why m I reacting differently...
PT was like an utter disapointted to myself
3 rounds at normal running speed during trng and I was dying of stitch
WTF??!!!
Marks was not ideal too...
Really sad, really disapointed, but what m I to do now?
"." << Mr.SnowyMan
