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Monday, February 22, 2010 / 10:12 PM
Life's a mess....a turnmoil....
So much going on nowadays, so many things to fret about over a short period of time
So many things waiting to be done, with limited time, I think that I wouldn't be able to carry out Mission Impossible.
Feel like giving up at times, but grasping on the little hope that I have, hoping that I wouldn't fall and even if I do, I hope it wouldn't be too hard....
Camps, test, CCA, class.... So different from last year, many more things to fret about, many more responsiblities, don't wish to carry them on my worn out shoulders, wish to drop them on a flower field and run around it with no worries...
I feel that the future seems.... so empty. Its like I can hear the silence within the room, with a pin drop I can hear alot. Life's a turnmoil at times. if its normal its just empty. I come home everyday for the sake of coming home. I don;t wish to at times, I feel lonely at home, even with a good for nothing brother at home, I feel the emptiness within. I used to think home is always the best, it can be at times, but to me now for most of the time, its just a dark dark hole, with nothing to do, nothing to play, no one to talk to. I rather walk rounds and rounds and rounds around the neighbourhood, enjoying wad I always miss while I was rushing. Now its even weekends, I have to look at sickening words of different languages, fretting about deadlines which we have to meet.
Though I don't wish to come home, I still have to, its still my home. Even if I don't wish to carry the responsiblities on my shoulder, I must, they are still my responsiblities. Even though sometimes I don't wish to study, I have to, its what I have to do at the moment.
I know alot of people in my class experience the same things. It is part of life. Face it. Overcome it. You might think that looking everyday at your task lists blankly, with no clue to how to complete it, is stressful and tough for a kid at yr age, but ulitmately, you can complete it. To survive and be the best among the rest, you will have to hold on tightly to the little hope you have and overcome all odds. That is where I shall place my goal...
To be the best among the rest....
"." << Mr.SnowyMan
